You know, I think one of the worst feelings is finding out that you didn’t mean as much to someone as you thought you did, and you just feel stupid, and because you looked desperate, about caring too much.
it really pains me to see someone dear to me to feel a lot worse than i do. i want to help, but i can’t and i don’t even know how to help myself. what more can i do for my friend? so in my attempt to say something, i end up saying something ridiculous or insensitive. and i’m really sorry for that. i truly am. i don’t think you want to talk about it right now, so i won’t ask you. i do hope you read this though. i’m not going to ask you to feel okay soon. but i hope that you don’t give up anytime soon. i know you’ll be better someday. and i know that you know that too. so just don’t keep your head down low for too long. :)
i’m getting bad again and it worsens by the day.
i don’t know how to stop it and it’s killing me.
DOES ANYONE ELSE GET LIKE REALLY HAPPY WHEN SOMEONE LEANS THEIR HEAD ON YOUR SHOULDER AND YOURE LIKE FUCK YEAH IVE BEEN CHOSEN AND YOU FEEL REALLY SPECIAL BUT THEN YOU HAVE TO STAY SO FUCKIBG STILL COS IF YOU MOVE THEYLL STOP LEANING ON YOU AND ITS LIKE NO COME BACK IM SORRRRYUWYY